Anyone keeping score will note that my life is not entirely on the “up” side of things. A quick recap: No job, no school, no money for school, isolated rural area with no money for gas, debt up to my eyeballs – and as of last night, no boyfriend.
My first urge upon hitting rock bottom is to zip across the country and try and patch up what I can (and thanks to Consumerism Commentary, I found a great site for airfare). But without a cent to my name – in fact, with negative cents to my name – I feel completely trapped. Powerless to do anything but sit at home, chasing after job offers that don’t result in call-backs. I can’t hop on a plane and reconcile the last good thing I felt like I had… for a very strange reason.
This blog is what keeps me from whipping out my credit card and using the spare credit left on it to purchase a plane ticket. The idea that I would have to log on and admit that amongst all of my financial troubles, I plopped down $200 to fly across the country, is what stops me from doing it.
I haven’t decided yet whether this is a good thing.
Gregory says
Eek. It never rains, it pours. Best wishes.
Though, in my experience (thankfully only second-hand), yes, personal problems invoke financial ones.
(I have some fairly screwy relatives.)
Bethany says
Yeah I have to agree with Greg. And I don’t know which was the better decision, buying or not buying… But if it’s meant to be.. it’s meant to be.. and other cliches. Not sure if you still have my screen name, but I’m open to chatting.
Jennifer Lynn says
I’m so sorry to hear about your breakup, Steph. I know you’re going through a hell of a time right now. Keep in mind that every seemingly senseless action serves a greater purpose in our lives, even if we’re too blinded by emotion or pain to fully grasp it at the moment (or even want to).
No matter what, you’re going to get through all this. *warm hugs*
You may feel very tempted to get away just to clear your head for a bit, but I strongly advise having more of a financial safety cushion first.
Now is your time to really shine and network as much as possible. If I were in your shoes, I would try to secure a job that is as non-stressful as possible as you continue sorting everything out.
You will persevere. And if you ever need to talk, please don’t hesitate to email me.
Golbguru says
Yes, in my opinion, personal problems do lead to financial crisis.
But, whatever happens do not loose hope. Ups and downs are a part of a package called “life”.
I am glad you didn’t go ahead with the airticket..you saved some really usefully money there. Just a take a long walk and think over everything. Write stuff down if that helps. Figure out what things are in your control..and start hacking them one by one. If you are overwhelmed, talk a long walk again..and reapeat the above stuff.
Sorry if I sound too preachy. Wish you better times ahead.
Stephanie says
Thank you. Everyone. It means a lot to me that every time I log on, there’s another comment here for me. It’s a huge help so… thank you.